It's all about me!!!

Most of you know me and that is why you are here but there are some crazy people out there that in their boredom have happened upon these blogs so here is a little something about me. My name is Caleb. OK that's it.......more?! Ok here it goes. I started this blog as a way to communicate with a friend about a number of different thoughts in regards to our spiritual beliefs who doesn't have a schedule that match's mine.

Over the past two years I worked with a guy who has a love for God and every thing that involves. For most of that time I tried to convince Dave that Organized "religion" was a bunch of crap and he would always say "maybe but..." and then we would be moving down the next line of conversation. One day I asked him how he knew with out physical proof that there was a God. He said that he didn't have any but his life is better and more fulfilled when he is pursuing god. I watched Dave for two years and had never seen anybody walk out a life with God with such integrity before so I decided that I should take a shot at it. Since that time I have started a relationship with God that has turned my world upside down and rocked it in such an amazing way.

God has shown me his wisdom over and over again. I was in an amazing relationship that was headed in a great wordly direction but there were parts of our relationship that weren't of God. Our relationship ended very abruptly for reasons that I had a hard time understanding...I guess I still don't but in that end I have come even closer to God and I think that He used that to bring me closer to Him. In a short time I have lost my job, the woman that I love and her two wonderful children, and the life that I once valued so much. Through this loss God has brought me closer to him and has helped me re-evaluate what I want in life. God tore me down to rebuild me and I feel so honored by it. It has been a scary, humbling, thrilling and exciting ride so far and I look forward to what God has in store for me.

So as you read these blogs please realize that any of it that has to do with theology is coming from an infant disciple. I am feeling my way through this as a clumsy sinner and am open to any thing that you have to say. Please feel free to contradict anything that I say or give any information to further educate me. Thank you for checking this out and please drop me some lines. I hope that you find this healthy, blessed and with a smile.

Prayer/Meditation

There is something that I struggle with as I pursue my walk with God and that is prayer/meditation time and time reading. I think that it is less of a problem and more of a discipline though. I’m reading a book called ’Practicing God’s Presence’ that is a short glimpse into a monk from the mid 1600’s named Brother Lawrence. I’m only a little ways into it but I was totally challenged immediately by this uneducated simple man. Brother Lawrence made his purpose in life to serve God and in doing so hungered for a constant communication with God. This would be like constant prayer or meditation while going about your constant day to day duties. It’s amazing the joy and love that he felt from this!

In my day to day life I could only hope and pray for such a bond. I think that it comes from that daily surrender and discipline of talking with God. It’s like that country song where the kid is always imitating his father and the father sees the son praying like he’s talking to a good friend. The father asks where he learned to pray like that and his son says from watching him. I want to pray like that. I want to have that love and bond with God. This goes for anybody though. There is some sort of prayer or meditation in every faith that I know of and the end result is almost the same in all of them.

My question to you is this....what part does prayer or meditation have on your life? Is that the the part that you want it to have? Please feel free to add anything that you want or ask questions...I might even have a good answer.
Be blessed
Caleb

Fear?

There are so many different ways that fear plays a part in a persons life. It can effect everything from the way that you drive to the way that you love...especially the way that you love. This can be taken in so many different ways. It can be in the way that you love your spouse to the way that you love Jesus. They are both difficult and have many different aspects of fear in them. When you really just sit down and think about it you'll realize that fear has impacted almost, if not every, aspect of your life. It can even be the trust of a friend because your friend at 4 years old stole your GI Joe. The problem is the way that we allow these things to effect our lives. I have always had a hard time feeling loved or cared for by a girlfriend if there isn't a strong physical intimacy there. I used to feel that it was a must in the relationship. I have been building an amazing relationship with God that gives me the moral judgement to say that it is the wrong way to go into that relationship but at the same time it is the only thing that I have known. That is where the trust in God comes in. This is SCARY for me to trust God!!! I'm far too independent and stubborn to just surrender my free will. God is helping me with this in the way that he is moving in my life. My fear is being replaced by faith.....or maybe it's something else. Maybe it's the decision that there is something more important than the fear.

Ok, enough of my ramblings. It's late and my mind is foggy so please feel free to add to this or express your feelings towards this. Don't worry about hurting my feeling. I'm far to shallow to feel the pain for to long. I look forward to your thoughts and our conversations. Be blessed.

Faith

Well hello there and welcome to my first blog. Pretty exciting isn't it!?! On my myspace I often post questions as to what a particular word or phrase means to people and today my friend Jessica told me to check this out so here I am and her is my first question for you.

What is Faith to you? How does it play in to every moment of your life or does it even play into your life at all?

I look forward to hearing your answers to this. Thank you for taking the time to read this and answer it. Be blessed.