6 Random Things About Me

I've tagged by Kirsten so I guess that means that I have to tell you about 6 random things that have to do with me.

1: I have the unique ability to drive a person nuts! Ok so maybe everybody knows that. I have used this super power to build relationships with so many people and have actually frown very close to a number of them.

2: I have a deep love people. I only say this because some people think that I'm rough on people but it's ony because I see tons of potential in people and I treat them like they are mediocre nor will I have that expectation for them.

3: I like baths. Stop laughing!!! This is the last place in my house that there is no chance of being bothered and it helps my back.

4: I'm a laugher! I have made a lot of people mad with this because they think that I don't care about them or the situation but that is not true. I can find humor in the most awkward situations. I've had people trying to attack me and I laughed at them. It wasn't one of those nervous giggles but a relaxed laugh at the situation, they almost always end up stopping.

5: I'm typing this from the bed of my truck at 11:00 pm behind the new Yaks while sitting on my sleeping bag and sleeping pad. I'm spending the night in the parking lot so that no one steals all of our stuff out here while we do floors.

6: My pinky toes have always stuck out funny. My left one is better since I broke completely sideways and reset it straighter than before the break. I'm still waiting for the right one to catch on something and break like the left.

There you have it. I hope that this was enlightening for you.

Guess what Jessica, tag your it!

The Wedding

As I type this I am at about 36,000 feet above sea level on my way back from my Dad’s wedding. What a great time I had!!! It was great to spend this time with all of that family. There is a bit of dysfunctional in there but I think that is just part of family. I have yet to meet a family that has no problems. I have been close to some that have had few and I have seen some that hidden it well but it’s just part of being us. We struggle with relationships from time to time no matter how good we are at them. I know that I have spent my time struggling with them and I’m sure that some of you are nodding your heads very enthusiastically. As much as I dislike confrontation or those “hard” moments I also have a deep respect and I am a bit fond of them (OK you can stop nodding now). I even enjoy stirring them up some time because I think that they are such a great chance to grow and learn about each other…and yourself. Oh yeah, the “yourself” part is so important!!! I have learned so much about myself from the people that I love and some teens that I grew very close to and loved. I tell you what, there is nothing like a smart, angry, confused, hurt, and scared teenager to teach you about yourself. Ok I’m heading down a rabbit trail and the funny thing is that I really have no clue where I even want this to go.

I guess family and relationships is where He wants me to run with this. Before this weekend began I was filled with emotions on how I felt about my Dad. I know that I love him and that he loves me. I don’t doubt that for a second. I know that he desires to spend more time with me but there are a lot of insecurities there and I’m not sure how to deal with them. Let me tell you some things that I learned from my dad. I learned that work is important and a good work ethic is very important. I’ve learned that you can fall hard and get back up ( I like that one ). I’ve learned that you can hug and kiss another man out of affection and there isn’t that perverse thought process and emotion behind it, it’s just showing them that they are special to you and that you care for them. Then there are the hard lessons and those tend to come with the others. These I won’t go into because I really don’t want you to have the wrong idea about him. I know that I have learned these from friends, my mother, my sister, lovers, and enemy’s.

Have you noticed that so much of life comes right back to the relationships that you are having in it. The relationships with your family, friends, waitress, customer, …..God. Whoa!!! How often is that the last relationship that you think of? It is so convicting for me. He should be the first one that I think of yet He seldom is. This is changing and He is the center of my thoughts more and more. The more I am focused on Him the more love that I give out to everybody else. Strange how that works.

OK so this is a very scattered post but it’s mine and I get to do what I want! I do hope that you enjoyed it and left it feeling convicted or better.

Father I thank you for giving me the ability and the opportunity to write this. I thank you for letting me land on my feet this morning. Thank you for giving me the chance to hug my dad, sister, Colleen, Grandma, Grandpa, and my mother Lord. Thank you for continuing to bless me over and over again with your grace. I know that I am undeserving but yet You still love me and I am so thankful. Please forgive me for not realizing how powerful Your love for me is and what a true blessing your grace is. Thank you Father. Amen

Night Ride

A couple of nights ago I was riding Steves bike through town with Nozer and it was amazing!!! This is a real quick post and not a very God centered one but I just have to share it with you and this is my blog so I can write about what ever I want...I like this!!! So there I was cruising down the road side by side with Nozer (she says it was like Star Wars) and I was just amazed at how amazing it was. For those of you who ride you will be able to relate and for those of you who don't then stay off of a bike because it is like cocaine. As we rode along I could feel the easy temperatures changing as we would go by a creek or into a little valley. You could smell all of the flowers, trees, and wild vegetation in full bloom. There was a freedom to it that was amazing. It's almost like flying. You swoop in and out of the corners smoothly like dancing as the suspension takes in all of the bumps and deviations in the road. You can feel the bike moving like an extension of your body. You know when the tires will start to break free or a certain bump will make the bike move rough through the corner. There's something amazing about the stars and the moon while riding down the road with no doors, no window, nothing to shield you from His world. Well I guess that this is going to come back to God....I guess it all comes back to God. It's weird how that works isn't it? It will always come back to Him...if you let it....no, if you are open to him and can recognize that it really is all about Him, His love, His creation, His grace, you can fill in the rest. These are the miracles that I so love about Him.

Father thank you for constantly blessing me with your grace and your love that I can't even understand or return. Thank you for for this day and all of the blessing that I recognized and failed to recognize. Thank you for loving me Father, thank you for guiding me Father, thank you for letting me be a part of your kingdom. Amen